Letting Go

Couldn't you see that I
wouldn't believe your lies?
How could you not know
I would have to let you go.

Couldn't you hear in me
all that I refuse to be?
How could you miss the truth
that I am not like you.

Chorus:
So cold, so bitter,
so wrapped up in yourself.
So lost, so broken
you can't see anyone else.
Heartless, jaded,
you know you live to be cruel.
And I know now
I can't hold on to you.

Couldn't you see me?
How you leave me bleeding?
How can you justify
all the wounds you leave behind.

Couldn't you hear your lies?
Your power to paralyze?
Like you think you have the right
to take over me tonight.

Chorus:
So cold, so bitter,
so wrapped up in yourself.
So lost, so broken
you can't see anyone else.
Heartless, jaded,
you know you live to be cruel.
And I know now
I can't hold on to you.

Bridge:
I love you; I hate you;
I'm torn in between.
You love nothing more than
to cause me misery.
I wanted to save you;
eyes open now I can see.
You don't want salvation
and holding you hurts me.

I can't hold on to you.

Chorus:
So cold, so bitter,
so wrapped up in yourself.
So lost, so broken
you can't see anyone else.
Heartless, jaded,
you know you live to be cruel.
And I know now
I can't hold on to you.
I can't hold on to you.
I can't hold on to you.

Requiem

Darkness spreads, voracious cancer,
Eating at my sun;
Consuming, feasting, swallowing
Until its work is done.

It’s cold, bone-chilling, numbing,
Whispery and vague;
I wander through this pitch-black land
Haunted as a grave.

My lips are bound, choking words
On crimson thread;
I dare not speak, dare not think;
I am already dead.

My hands broken, useless things,
Holding nothing, grasping still;
What I need slips, water-thin,
I never get my fill.

The edges of my poisoned wound
Blood darkens, lingers, seeps;
Stains body, soul, and mind;
Vanishes in the deep.

Silence beckons, smothers, soothes,
False peace to lay my head;
I wander lost, in dark unending;
I am already dead.

Want

I can say with truth;
I never saw this coming.
I can say to you;
I should have started running.

You can make me want
When I know better.
You can make me hurt
For what I cannot have.

Chorus:
I close my eyes and see you;
I breathe and taste you in my mouth;
I ache for everything that is you;
And I cannot do without.

I am far too proud to beg;
If you would listen.
Words are less than what is said;
I can’t get over this.

You smile and everything fades;
I can’t escape it.
You look like you’ve just got it made
When all I want is you.

Chorus:
I close my eyes and see you;
I breathe and taste you in my mouth;
I ache for everything that is you;
And I cannot do without.

Bridge:
How can you be the air to me?
How can you make it hurt to breathe?
How can I make you stop and see
Me?

Chorus:
I close my eyes and see you;
I breathe and taste you in my mouth;
I ache for everything that is you;
And I cannot do without.

Veritas

Shadows vague, uneasy grow;
Sinking into all I know.
I hear the truth beneath what’s spoken;
You refuse to see I’m broken.

Silence captive holds me here;
Imprisoned within unsteady fear.
Weaponless, defenseless I
Crouch, cower, wait to die.

Cut me to the size you need;
Pretend that I don’t really bleed.
Abandoned, isolated, torn;
Unsure of what it is I mourn.

Grief breeds anger, fury, rage;
Locked inside this pretty cage.
I take what you refuse to shoulder;
The shadows growing ever colder.

I cannot speak and so I scream;
I cannot sleep for I might dream,
Terrible, voracious things,
Mocking what the daylight brings.

Shattered, jagged edges raw;
You still pretend you never saw.
Balanced upon a living grave,
I still pretend I can be saved.

Defiant

bind the tongue that makes you bleed;
crimson words dripping free.
acid burns against the soul;
eating through the world you know.

i am not your resting place;
i am not your ever after;
i am not the one you crave;
and you will not consume me.

shatter the unbreakable;
starve yourself but call it full.
power craves what it has not;
you knew it once, but you forgot.

i am not your true companion;
i am not your wicked lie;
i am not the one who saves;
and you will not consume me.

stake the ground and still it moves;
taking what you don't want to lose.
spill your bitterness and doubt;
but i will leave you here without.

i am not your tunnel's light;
i am not your beast of burden;
i am not the one who needs;
and you will not consume me.

Denial

burgundy wine blushes gently,
piercing the tongue with bitter fruit;
your words drift along like water,
tasting nothing at all like truth

i sip, a whisper, a curiosity
flooding my mouth with crushing regret;
for you are sandcastles braving windstorms
foolishly hoping to just forget